Reel Tears

Susie and Charlotte return with their gently selected topics of infuriation. The reasonably incensed pair give it their all as they attempt to intelligently argue their grievances into Room 111, but does everything qualify? Or will they be left shedding tears on social media? Listen and find out...

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:18

Welcome. Hello, hello. We're back, we're back. We're back, or we're just here because most people didn't even know that we had arrived with um run one one one. So um, for listeners of the Lightworkers Cafe, welcome to our new podcast. Um we weren't very good at actually advertising the fact that we completely changed the format and gone over to a different platform. So um hopefully everyone will be able to find us now with our hilarious and progressive uh new arrangement and style for our podcast. Yes, horn has made it through the narrow gap where we have transmuted our cafe to room 111.

SPEAKER_01 1:01

Um, shall we explain room 111 again just so people understand it? Yeah. So um we got so excited with our new format that we completely forgot to really tell people about it because you know we're just having a chat. But we decided to do a kind of mirrored version of room run 101 that anyone of our generation will probably remember. It was around for quite a while, where in this particular style, what we're gonna do is purify. So we're gonna choose one spiritual thing and one non-spiritual thing that we want to put into room 111, and it's our room 111, which is a purification space which will metamorphosize. Oh, is that a word? Metamorphosi, oh that just channelled through that did um into something more pure and delicious because that then gives us permission just to have a little moan. But we are uh, you know, the reason we're bringing it into the light is so that it can be purified. Room 111, we have a jingle by my nephew, um, and with sound effects, uh upgraded sound effects, haven't we, Charlotte? We've gone pro after five years. So noon improved, and we've decided to put it on the light workers cafe so people can find it, and then you know where to find us in the future. So we will be doing one a month. We promise we will be doing one a month.

SPEAKER_00 2:33

We promise, unless something happens and we can't.

SPEAKER_01 2:35

Yeah. Like, you know, the apocalypse, which is edging ever closer. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 2:41

If the red button goes, or there's you know a world-size tsunami, we might not be able to make it to the microphone. But otherwise, we will be here to purify the world four things at a time.

SPEAKER_01 2:53

Yes, that's it. I like it. I like it. So without further ado, I'm gonna hand back over to you, beautiful Charlotte, and uh we can just mosey on down into our little room and see what's happening.

SPEAKER_00 3:08

Okay, well, so my I'm gonna start with my spiritual topic. Struggled with this one a bit because to be honest, there's so much to choose from. And they all carry a relatively similar theme. Now, this one I'm aware is maybe gonna make me seem like a bit of an asshole. Um but you're not, so we know that. And I I know that in my heart and at the core of my being. So um I'm gonna let it slip and I'm just going to offer up reels or photographs that people put on social media, specifically Instagram, TikTok, of when they've had a big cry.

SPEAKER_01 3:58

Me and Lee can't bear that with a conversation. We I'm I'm all up for that. It's already in the beginning.

SPEAKER_00 4:08

Do you know what? I'm really glad that that you know what I'm talking about. Because I had a moment where I was like, am I the only one who's finding this super cringe? Like when people post a photo of themselves with like red eyes and all watery, and they're like, I've just released the big emotion about blah blah blah blah blah. And don't get me wrong, you know, I understand there is a lot of pain and certainly a lot of grief going around, and I am a person who, like everybody else, experiences heavy grief and and pain um from time to time. And I am also guilty of doing this once. I've done it once seven years ago, yeah, and I um feel a little bit nauseous about the fact that I did do it, but now I see it everywhere, and it's like, what do you want us to do? Like, hooray, you had a big feeling, but it's like this sort of hand on heart, watery-eyed today.

SPEAKER_01 5:04

It's performance, it's before you know when we we talk about spiritual performance, that's exactly the sort of thing that I just go, oh god, I just switch off.

SPEAKER_00 5:17

Yeah, well, it's the performance of vulnerability as well. And I'm like, vulnerability is not a performance, vulnerability is when you feel fucking raw and you're like, please don't look at me right now. When you're posting your inverted commas vulnerability, you just look like a tool because it's so obvious that it's that it's like a cry for attention, and me, I'm sad, and it's staged.

SPEAKER_01 5:41

There's nothing authentic about something like that. I mean, a caveat, I did it in my reel of you know, when you do on the New Year's Day, the reel of the year before, because I was going through my my photos, and I was uh I've got a video call with somebody and I was telling them about something that happened to me in hospital, and I was genuinely upset. And I was like, you know what, that was a big moment for me. And it's in there for about three seconds as part of a montage, small little tiny bit, snippet, because it was a big thing for me to go through, but I couldn't just post that by itself, that would just feel so wrong and so princess y do you know what I mean? I just and also I don't want people to know why I was crying. It wasn't it wasn't about because you know, a bit of oh, is that is that you okay, hun?

SPEAKER_00 6:36

You okay, hun? It is the equivalent of going onto Facebook and saying, I can't believe it.

SPEAKER_01 6:42

Dot dot dot.

SPEAKER_00 6:43

Dot dot again, we put dot you okay, hun. Um and it's like I that I think that's completely forgivable, putting it in a montage. I did the full throttle where I had a big cry and then came on camera watery-eyed and announced to everyone that I'd had a big cry.

SPEAKER_01 6:58

Oh no, I've never done that.

SPEAKER_00 7:00

I know I'm yeah, just um, but but yeah, I mean, now I see it far too frequently.

SPEAKER_01 7:07

Yeah, but it's become a trend, hasn't it? And like more other stuff on social media, but it it it goes back to this whole pantomime of spirituality where you know everyone wants to be perceived as feeling, and everyone wants to be perceived as vulnerable, and it's just like oh the reality of that is when you're when you're creating it in such a kind of performative sense, and on social media, it strips away the very thing you're trying to do. Absolutely, faux vulnerability, yeah. Yeah, I'm I'm I'm I'm loving that choice, absolutely loving that choice. I'm really glad. Yeah, as you know, I've had a bit of a shit day, and that's cheered me up, no end.

SPEAKER_00 7:55

You're not gonna have a cry and announce it on Instagram.

SPEAKER_01 7:57

Oh, I'll do it later.

SPEAKER_00 7:58

I'll do it later.

SPEAKER_01 7:59

Put it on TikTok.

SPEAKER_00 8:04

Okay, well, I think that was fairly straightforward.

SPEAKER_01 8:06

I mean, yeah, that that that's going in. That that's gotta be uh that's gotta be I'm I'm almost to the point where I wish I'd thought of that myself.

SPEAKER_00 8:14

That makes me particularly, particularly proud of myself. Hooray, in it go! Yeah. So that one is in. Excellent. Well, you know, the baton goes to you now, Susie Pooh. Um and I'm really looking forward to this because you're feeling grumpy today. So yeah.

SPEAKER_01 8:34

I was thinking about various different things that you know uh uh in the spiritual realms that uh that have got to me, particularly today and in the last couple of days. And in the end, I was just like, I'm just putting it all in. So it's the spirituality just pissing me off. Everything, soul contracts, bored of them. I've had enough. Uh, you know, lessons. Oh, what's this teaching me about myself today? All of that, all of that. What am I learning? Ugh, what's this thing? I can't be doing with it. I'm fucking done. I'm done. I'm like, I don't want to be spiritual anymore. I don't want to be spiritual anymore. That that's it, that's it. I'm I'm I'm retiring myself from the from this realm. I just thought I can't identify it down to one thing. It's just spirituality as a whole right now is just pissing me off.

SPEAKER_00 9:31

Yeah, okay. Um, that's a big topic.

SPEAKER_01 9:33

It's a big one because every angle that you look at, right? I just feel the last five years has just been like swimming through fucking treacle. With also the most euphoric highs. You know, the highs have been so great, but the lows are just like, oh god. And today I was just like, I just wish I didn't know all this stuff. I just wish I didn't know all this stuff. I wish I was just just silly old me like I was before, completely naive. I mean, you know, I don't clearly on a really deep level. I probably don't because my soul doesn't want me to be in that space, but I'm so done with the lessons and the trying to see it from another perspective and the kind of compassion and the vulnerability, like you've got to be vulnerable. Fuck off!

SPEAKER_03 10:26

Don't want to be vulnerable. Don't want to be vulnerable anymore.

SPEAKER_00 10:35

Now, if I saw that on a reel on Instagram, you'd have my attendance.

SPEAKER_01 10:42

So I was just like, I saw it's all going in, all of it. Specifically, what got me to it was soul contracts. Right, okay. That was what it got to me. But then when I was looking at what a soul contract creates and and you know, the growth and the expansion, the shadow work, all of that. That's all of it. It's just all of it. That's that that's it, it's all of it. I'm done. It snowballed into the entire thing. Yeah. Um I mean, obviously, off the back of the fact that I'm feeling particularly grumpy today, I just thought, right, I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna muck around. It's all going in. Because I I I feel my particular view needs purifying.

SPEAKER_00 11:23

So I'm gonna I'm gonna have to push back on you a bit here. Well, I thought you would. Yeah. Um, firstly, soul contracts is specific to various types of spirituality, but not all. So therefore, you know, to put the entire world of spirituality in, I don't know if it's deserving of that. Um another reason is I somewhat fear if we put all of spirituality into room 111. I mean, obviously it's a room of purification, so who knows what would happen, but we could all just instantly die.

SPEAKER_01 12:02

And that wouldn't be good. Mind you, at this point, I don't care. I mean if you don't, I'm not scared of death. I know that the whatever happens next is gonna be amazing. So there's part of me that's like, well, the mood I'm in today, fuck it.

SPEAKER_00 12:20

Well, you know, I'm almost suggesting that we put you into room 111.

SPEAKER_01 12:27

It's probably a good idea. Yeah, just put me in there and my and my wronginess, purify me. No, because it might make things even harder.

SPEAKER_00 12:36

That's true. I mean, it is a very, very fierce lava hot purification space.

SPEAKER_01 12:41

Yeah, but I don't think I've got the energy. I just want to put my slippers on and have a cup of tea today.

SPEAKER_00 12:45

Yeah, and on that note, if we put spirituality in, it might do the same thing. I mean, you know, we might have to do everything times a thousand whilst it's all been because you know the spiritual realms are very dirty right now, as we well know. So if we celebrate that purification, we might be in for an even bigger roller coaster, I suspect.

SPEAKER_01 13:04

Well, it could be an apocalypse within an apocalypse. I mean, the whole thing would just collapse in on itself, then where would we be?

SPEAKER_00 13:10

Yeah, I mean, probably having a cup of tea in our slippers, but yeah, and there it is, full circle.

SPEAKER_01 13:17

It's like that that trippy thing where you just keep coming back to the it just keeps going round in a circle. Like that's how I felt in the last two days.

SPEAKER_00 13:26

What is it called? The aura borealis or something.

SPEAKER_01 13:29

That's it, like the Jacob's ladder type scenario. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 13:33

Going round and round. I didn't think you'd put it in, but I was just so grumpy. It was worth you bringing it up, and I'm really glad that you entered it. Imagine I say yes to that and the consequences, and then you know, I have to bear that. My soul.

SPEAKER_01 13:54

Yeah, okay, fair enough. I like that's your soul contract, then you'd be, you know, you'd be in big trouble in the next life.

SPEAKER_00 14:00

I mean, very possibly in an art in the last life, I did put it in, and that's why I'm hitting it now. So, like, I'm not risking it again. I'm gonna leave it alone.

SPEAKER_01 14:11

Okay, let it we'll we'll I'll I'll take that. I'll take that one that that it's not going in.

SPEAKER_00 14:17

Okay, thank you. Um, I don't know why I'm thanking you. I made the decision. Um it's not going in. Nah-uh. And onwards we go. So back to me then.

SPEAKER_01 14:34

Yes.

SPEAKER_00 14:35

So what's yours?

SPEAKER_01 14:36

What's your second choice? So we're going into the non-spiritual because we thought, you know, we should do the human messiness as well.

SPEAKER_00 14:44

Yeah. Um, this was unlike the spiritual one, this one I I was like really juggling between topics here because you know, funnily enough, there are a lot of uh just everyday things that I would really like. Yeah. Um, I I was going in one direction, but I'm gonna have to do it. I'm gonna have to go with gentle parenting.

SPEAKER_01 15:07

Ooh, I like it.

SPEAKER_00 15:09

Now, obviously, for those of you who aren't parents or don't have any association with children out there, of which I would imagine there's few, but yeah, this might not make a lot of sense to you.

SPEAKER_01 15:19

But even then, surely some of them might have kids at some point, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 15:24

Or you've yeah, walked down the street and seen, you know, Jane going, no, no, Tarquin, we don't touch that with our fingers. Spit our food at old ladies, they're there, and then Tarquin going, he's cute, motherfucker.

SPEAKER_01 15:37

You know, he's just expressing himself, yes, absolutely.

SPEAKER_00 15:41

And then, yeah, the tur the turnaround to that is it's good to let your feelings out, Tarquin. That's it. Okay, please don't hit mummy. Mummy doesn't like that, it hurts mummy's feelings. I have obviously been witness to some gentle parenting in in recent years, and uh in my partner's own words, have seen that we're raising a generation of entitled little shits. So um, I'm a big believer in boundaries and boundaries with children. Um, I can absolutely admit that I probably weigh in on the slightly stricter side of things, and I definitely need someone such as my partner who's a little bit gentler to go, hang on a minute, like deprivation isn't always discipline. Um, so I see that. However, the rudeness and the obnoxiousness of some of the fucking children that are, you know, growing up in this society is blowing me away. Yeah. And like, and it feels to me like they are screaming, screaming for a boundary, screaming to just be told no, and they've got too much control and they don't know what to do with it.

SPEAKER_01 16:58

But then there's no direction when you don't give children boundaries, it's actually detrimental to their growth. Not giving a child a boundary, they need boundaries, they need to understand what to push up against. I mean, I was a single parent, I was mum and dad. There was no bullshit with me, mate. Absolutely none. And Josh is a very well-balanced, amazing young man now, and I get many, many compliments on him being such a wonderful human. I said, Well, you know, he is his own person, but it does impact on how you bring them up. It does. And you're not, and that, like you say, the gentle parenting, it's not doing it's not doing them any favours long term, it it just long-term entitled little shits, I think is the correct terminology.

SPEAKER_00 17:45

Praising narcissists. I mean, you know, if they think that the world is completely at their disposal, like what are they gonna do? And also, it's the danger of what happens to them when they realise that isn't the case when they get into later years and they just run into walls constantly. But you know, going back to social media, I've seen clips posted of kids smashing up TVs and throwing phones at the wall, and you know, parents just stood by going, he's just expressing his feelings. I want to jump through this phone and express my feelings, briefly this child. Um, and and then you start to feel really guilty because you're like, oh my god, I'm actually thinking about harming a child. But it's like the the the the sort of rise of no that comes up in me when I see children just let loose in this way is so severe. I'm like, stop it! You know, we're we're we're raising all of the leadership that we're trying to get rid of at the moment. Um, so yeah, I I I've gotta I've gotta say I I I am really anti. I'm not I'm not abusive parenting, like I'm definitely not quoting that. I'm not like let's go back to beating our children with sticks, you know, let's get the belt out. No, no, no, no.

SPEAKER_01 18:56

I used I all I used to have to do with Josh when he was crossing a line or he was just going too far, it was a look. I just had a look. I would just look at him in a certain way with my eyes would get bigger and I would just have this stern look and he would stop whatever he was doing. There was no, I wasn't, you know, never said anything detrimental. He just knew there was a point that if if I'm giving you this look, you've got one more chance before whatever happens, happens. As in, you know, and it's not like I won't beat him with a sticker or anything like that, never never hit him. You know, it wasn't that drastic, but it was that you if we were out, you'd go home, or you'd have no, you know, you'd have no dessert for putting, or you know, put in, you'd have no, you know, some there would be a consequence to his action. That was basically what the look meant. It didn't mean anything more than that. But because I would always follow through with that consequence, he knew that that was his warning. Just a look, just a look. And there's a there's a meme circulating on on Instagram, and I keep sending it to him because it's coming up with different animals or different things. Uh, you know, how did your mum used to tell you off when you were younger? And it's just this look. I keep sending it to him. But it is that it's that consistency in parenting so that they know there's a consequence, and I think that's the problem. There's no consequence to an action with gentle parenting. There's absolutely no consequence, it's like you end up with parents.

SPEAKER_00 20:35

I've heard this story, you know, from others, but the parents cowering in the corner because they're so afraid of their children who are just screaming abuse at them and going, I hate you, I fucking hate you. And it's just like this is awful. Now, caveat, I do understand that ADHD is rife in these times and that children have got like real neurological struggles. Do you get that? We have that. You know, it's it there are there does need to be adaptive ways to deal with these different nervous systems that we're confronted with. So I do understand there has to be flexibility in how we're approaching things, but there still needs to be a boundary.

SPEAKER_01 21:11

Well, and it and also it's kind of not the the other thing about parenting is you have to assert I am the adult, you are the child. They have to understand that there's a differentiation. You know, the other thing is where everyone tries to be best pals with their kids. Don't get me wrong, I have a very strong relationship with my son, and I would consider us now good friends, but he's 26, you know. When he was younger, yes, we it would be Pally, but there was a definite definition of I am the parent, you are the child. Yeah. And that and and that just seems to be blurred lines now.

SPEAKER_00 21:47

Yeah, it's not safe for them to feel like they're friends with an adult, you know, at a young age, I don't think. They have to feel the safety of saying, you know, I can I can make sure that you don't harm yourself, which is Rental role. I'm here to make sure that you live your life to the fullest and truest and don't hurt yourself on the way.

SPEAKER_01 22:06

Yeah. And if you do, I will pick you up and I will help you. Yes. You know, not not that kind of well, there's also the parenting, well, you know, you saw that coming, you know, and then it's the shaming. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's that. So um two good ones.

unknown 22:22

Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 22:22

Two very good ones. Two very good ones. I remember one of the other things I used to do, I used to do with Josh is I would count to three. And one of my friends said to me once, what happens when you get to three? I said, I don't know. Four. I never I never had to find out. And I don't know how we managed to make that work, but that was the other thing I'd start to count. And I never ever had to get very rarely did I have to get to three. But I had no idea what I was going to do if I did get to three and he didn't do what he was supposed to do. Or there was a I I and I and I remember laughing about this to many people. I just would carry on. Four. Five. But it was it was something, it was enough for that recognition, you know. We and we laugh about it now. He's 26, you know, there's things he remembers that I don't remember, which is quite entertaining. But you know, it all turned out good. He turned out to be a good lad. I think gentle parenting is a great one to go in room one one.

SPEAKER_00 23:25

Thank you. So we can we can let it purify into appropriate thing.

SPEAKER_01 23:29

Appropriate purify it. Da nice, nice. Okay, what you got? So my non-spiritual one is probably a little bit more mundane. That was quite a deep topic that you had, but my mine is this new thing that seems to be mostly on American programs, is these TV spoilers where at the end of the first episode they do like this 45-second clip of everything that's gonna happen in the whole fucking series. Oh, yeah. I've seen uh it's happened about four times now, and I have to shut my eyes. Ah, no, don't show me what's gonna happen. And I'm like, what is this? And apparently, I was reading about this somewhere, I can't remember where I read it or I saw it on on Instagram, or someone was being interviewed, but apparently what they're doing now is they're they're um reducing the amount of interaction that you need mentally with programs because they're making programs for people that are on their phones so that you can easily keep up with the show. So they show I presume this is why they're showing you this bit at the end, so that you've got an idea on what's happening. So if you miss some of it because you're on your phone, you still know what's going on. And I was I was horrified when I found this out, but also there was a part of me that was like, oh, that makes sense because I've noticed I am less and less engaged with programmes now. I mean, there's I I don't watch huge amounts of tell, but I do like some of the really good stuff. But I've also noticed how I don't, I'm like, oh I just it's just I can't get into it or it's not engaging me. And this is probably why. Because they're they're dumbing it down, because they're expecting the audience to be on their phones.

SPEAKER_00 25:21

I mean, that's just gross, isn't it? The fact that you know TV is being adapted so that people can be zombified into their phone. I mean make the TV compelling enough that exactly like I you know, we barely watch TV because Hannah and I can't keep our attention whatsoever. Um, but we we recently watched something that did captivate us, and we our phones were in the other room. Like if TV is good, then you don't want your phone. Yeah, there shouldn't be any need to be distracted by your phone. Don't make shit programs so that people can just be like, you know, zoning out from you to the phone and back again.

SPEAKER_01 25:56

It's but like say it's zombifying the nation, isn't it? It's that instead of making things more engaging, they're dumbing them down. And I was just enraged when I heard about this. I was just like, no wonder that makes sense. There's still some I can't remember what the last thing I watched that was really good, but there's a couple of things I've watched that I've enjoyed and it has engaged me, but it's getting less and less frequent, which again, frequency-wise, is probably something to do with me as well, because I don't always just like sitting in front of the telly. But on a sometimes on a Friday night, you know, I mean on my own, I actually quite enjoy good film, or but it's getting harder to find something that I can actually kind of latch on to and enjoy. And this and it's only American programs at the end of, and it seems to be at the end of the first episode, they do this new thing where it's like a trailer for the whole fucking series, so it kind of gives it away, and like the third time I saw it, I was like, ah, shut my eyes, shut my eyes, shut my eyes, close my ears. I don't know, and it's horrendous, absolutely horrendous, and I think it just spoils the whole idea, especially if it's like a thriller or like some sort of because I quite like a psychological thing where you're not quite sure what's gonna happen or who's done it, all that sort of stuff.

SPEAKER_00 27:13

And then they're fucking showing you to the first episode exactly of having any sort of you know, suspense on TV, and then it becomes even more stupid. Um, I have not come across this at all, but um, it sounds ridiculous. Um, it's also quite saddening because it's like that's what it's come to that in order to supplement people's phone addiction, you have to tell them what's gonna happen in the entire series, and then why would anyone bother to continue watching it?

SPEAKER_01 27:45

Well, this is this is exactly my point. When I saw it, I actually said out loud to the telly, ah, what are you doing that for? Done it. I was just I didn't know what to do because I was like, oh, and and and I remember feeling really deflated, like, oh now, well, now I know what's pretty much what's gonna happen, bar the finer details, and I just I didn't bother watching the rest of it. It's it spoiled the whole, I was just well that's fucking great. I mean, the only upside to that is that I am menopausal, so by the time the second episode came out, I couldn't remember what I'd seen. So I just yeah, I just knew when it got to the end, just turn it off straight away. Don't don't because literally that it finishes before the credits come up, they do it. I can't remember what it was a particular program. So uh uh the second the second episode it started and I was just uh stop. But this is a whole new dynamic, and it was an actor, I can't remember who it was that was talking about this in an interview, saying because they do they produce stuff as well, and they've they're they're kind of being fed down because obviously we know that uh that Hollywood and all of that industry is infiltrated by the 1% and the the negative forces of you know, dumb it down because people will be on their phones now. So make it so that they can be on their phone, look away for uh 30 seconds or a minute, look back up, and then not really have lost the plot of what's happening.

SPEAKER_00 29:18

Well, also what they're doing is just rehashing the same plots over and over and over again. There's no new stories out there, we've just got dead material, which is why. I mean, if we sit down, you know, because we do occasionally we sit down and go, let's watch a film tonight, spend an hour looking for a film that might calculate us enough, and by that time we can't be fucking bothered. It's like, oh, I'll just you know, go to bed.

SPEAKER_01 29:41

Um I've gone back to my Victorian era of of reading. Oh, wow! Oh, excellent. Yeah, I've I I've gone through so many books. That's my that's my favourite. It's how I relax. I you know, I might watch a bit of telly, but getting into a really good book for me, all I need is my little nightcap and a candle, and I've completely regressed back to the Victorian era because I love it. And I can get more engrossed in a book now than I can the telly.

SPEAKER_00 30:09

Yeah, I mean that's that's you know, very I I really admire that, and I would love to be able to do that myself. Um, I live with a Gemini who can't hold her attention on anything for more than 10 seconds, so I would probably get through about four paragraphs before you know the questions would start.

SPEAKER_01 30:25

Well, I mean, I am single, so I have the peace and quiet to do that. That could quite possibly change if I was in a relationship.

SPEAKER_00 30:33

Yeah. But you know, I can't blame her entirely. Like I don't sit out and carve out time. And you know, you have to almost get yourself re-addicted to reading, don't you? Your neurological pathways accustomed to looking at words again rather than just absorbing information through a screen all this.

SPEAKER_01 30:49

But yeah, and I have to get into that when I've when I I've just finished one book and I've already got two lined up, because in case one of them isn't great, I need a backup for that. I need a backup for backup. I I actually get quite unnerved if I don't have a good book to hand ready because I've just finished one. So I have a night off when I've finished a book to cleanse my palate, and then I start and so I'll start my new book tonight, which I'm actually quite excited about.

SPEAKER_00 31:15

That is exciting. I'm happy to see.

SPEAKER_01 31:17

Yeah, thanks. That's the only good bit of my day. You're just hanging on for the scene when you start your book. In case you didn't realise, I've not had a good day today.

SPEAKER_00 31:34

Um, well, I'm gonna allow it because uh I don't I've not seen it, I don't know about it, but um, it would definitely piss me off. I don't even like the intro at the beginning of shows for the recap. I always skip it. I'm just like I fucking know, I've watched it. I wouldn't be watching this episode if I didn't know what happened in the last one.

SPEAKER_01 31:52

Well that it's like they've copied that, but they put it at the end. Yeah, ridiculous. The next bit the next few episodes. I it just is absolute mad absolute madness, madness.

SPEAKER_00 32:04

Let's put it in.

SPEAKER_01 32:05

Yes, yes.

SPEAKER_00 32:13

Well, that's too old, then. No, you didn't you're first wanted. Oh, yeah, that's right. I mean, we debated you going in, but then we obviously decided.

SPEAKER_01 32:22

I don't mind going in. I probably not yet.

SPEAKER_00 32:26

Like, we don't even know what this room does yet. This is only episode two, so I think we better wait and just see the the after effects before we commit ourselves to room one one.

SPEAKER_01 32:34

That's a good idea. I might not come out the other side.

SPEAKER_00 32:36

Well, exactly, or you might come out like transformed into a giraffe or something like that. We just don't know. We just don't know, you know. It could be a whole like twilight zone where you enter like some weird upside-down planet or something.

SPEAKER_01 32:50

It might be quite enjoyable after the day I've had today, so I'll take my chances. I might just take the keys to the door tonight. All right, okay, yeah, probably probably hide them from me.

SPEAKER_00 33:00

Yeah, you're sounding a bit nihilistic, and I don't want you to make uh make a decision you might regret.

SPEAKER_01 33:08

Well, I mean, there we go. Episode two on a on a on on uh Susie's Grumpy Day. Yes. And um, I'm always a bit more entertaining when I'm grumpy.

SPEAKER_00 33:19

I think so. And it's on also it's Susie's Grumpy Day, it also coincides with a beautiful spring day.

SPEAKER_01 33:25

Yeah, it is a lovely day out there. I have been out, I've been to the gym, been for a nice walk in the sunshine, I've still grumpy!

SPEAKER_00 33:31

Yeah, wait, that book's gonna turn your life around, I can tell you.

SPEAKER_01 33:34

It will, it will. I'm gonna have a nice hot bath, I've got lovely dinner, and then I'm gonna read my book. So I know that the rest of the day will only end on a high. Yes, yeah. That's I'll just cry myself to sleep. It's part of being spiritual, isn't it? Yes, feel it, feel it, you've got to feel it to heal it.

unknown 33:51

Ah whatever.

SPEAKER_01 33:54

I'm so sick of it.

SPEAKER_00 33:56

Please do a real. Please put it, please cry and then put it on Instagram. Okay. Oh my gosh.

SPEAKER_01 34:06

I mean, you know, I do say all of this with jest because I know that everything that uh I'm experiencing right now is growth. It is a growth point, but it's like you know, you just are so fucking fed up with it.

SPEAKER_00 34:20

I know. Sometimes it feels like a cancerous growth.

SPEAKER_01 34:23

Oh, it's just relentless, isn't it? I mean, I know that's been the word we've used countless times over the last five years, but it is the word of the era.

SPEAKER_00 34:31

Uh you know, our entire generation is going to be associated with the word relentless.

SPEAKER_01 34:35

Yeah, yeah, it is. There we go. So, yeah, anyway, I've got my new book, nice bit of dinner. And tomorrow is a new day.

SPEAKER_00 34:42

Okay, I'm going for a swim in the sea. I'm gonna play by myself in the I'd love to do that. That would sort me right out, actually. It actually would, yeah. It can change your day, those minerals.

SPEAKER_01 34:52

And you know what? I did at one point think, can I drive all the way down to Whitzpour and do the podcast at yours? And then I was just like, Oh, can't be bothered. But another time I will come swimming in the sea. Yes, yeah, all right, my darling.

SPEAKER_00 35:12

Fabulous. Well, episode three will be edging in at some point over the next month.

SPEAKER_01 35:18

Yeah, we'll see you again in May. Take care.

SPEAKER_00 35:21

Take care.

unknown 35:23

Bye.